One of John Lennon’s most melancholy songs, ‘Aisumasen (I’m Sorry)’ was a response to his faltering marriage to Yoko Ono in 1973.
In April 1971 Lennon recorded home demos of three songs: ‘Oh Yoko!’, ‘God Save Us’, and ‘Call My Name’. The first song was released on Imagine, the second was rewritten as a campaign song for Oz magazine, and the third remained unreleased.
Although incomplete, ‘Call My Name’ had the melody Lennon later used on ‘Aisumasen (I’m Sorry)’. Featuring Lennon on guitar and with Ono audible in the background, its lyrics were similar to the song later released on Mind Games. Interestingly, however, Lennon cast himself as the protector, whereas on ‘Aisumasen’ he portrayed himself as vulnerable and needing help.
When you’re down and you’re out
And there ain’t nothing you can do about it
I ease your pain girl – yes I ease your pain girlYes all you got to do is call my name
Yes all you have to do is call my name
Another home demo of ‘Call My Name’ was recorded in late 1971. However, the lyrics didn’t suit the political themes that Lennon was working on for Some Time In New York City, and it remained on the shelf for the time being.
By 1973 “I’ll ease your pain” had become “aisumasen”, Japanese for “I’m sorry”. With Lennon’s marriage to Ono under threat in 1973 – he began his affair with May Pang around the time Mind Games was recorded – his confession of guilt was sincere and from the heart.
The change in tone was remarkable when compared with Lennon’s previous expressions of love towards Ono. Several songs on both John Lennon/Plastic Ono Band and Imagine were inspired by his love for his wife, but ‘Aisumasen (I’m Sorry)’ found him lost and adrift without her. The song effectively marked the beginning of the Lost Weekend, Lennon’s 18-month descent into alcohol-fuelled hedonism which ended with his reunion with Ono in 1975.
The lyrics of ‘Aisumasen (I’m Sorry)’ also reference You Are All Sanpaku, a 1965 book by George Ohsawa on macrobiotic food. ‘Sanpaku’ is a term connoting a state of physical and spiritual imbalance.
‘Sanpaku’ refers literally in Japanese to an eye with three (san) whites (paku). The eyes of someone who is sanpaku have white showing underneath the iris – such as the late President Kennedy’s. My motive in predicting the tragic end of individuals, societies and nations has always been to warn them to alter the course of their destiny. You must heal yourself before attending to anything else.A happy society must be built on happy individuals. Every person’s happiness depends on his health. Macrobiotics is neither merely a way of curing illness nor a mystical Oriental cuisine. Some people think it is a brown rice diet, others that it is a means of giving up pleasure at meals. How far from the truth these ideas are! Macrobiotics is a profound understanding of the orderliness of nature, the practical application of which enables us to prepare attractive, delicious meals, and achieve a happy life.
Ono had been given a copy of the book, although she was already familiar with many of the dietary ideas it contained. Lennon read the book while still living in England, and again in New York in the mid-70s.
In the spring of ’76, by chance John bumped into the film star and anti-sugar crusader Gloria Swanson in a grocery store. Her husband Bill Dufty had translated George Ohsawa’s book You Are All Sanpaku into English. She sent a copy to John, he read it, got totally into it again, got obsessed with it and bought a box of books and gave them to everybody he knew as well as Dufty’s other book, Sugar Blues.
Mind Games book, 2024
In the studio
‘Aisumasen (I’m Sorry)’ was recorded on 5 August 1973 at the Record Plant studio in New York.
It was completed in just three takes, the first of which was incomplete. The master was take 3, and featured Lennon’s vocals and acoustic guitar, David Spinozza’s electric guitar, two tracks of piano by Ken Ascher, Gordon Edwards’ bass guitar, and three tracks of drums by Jim Keltner.
The overdubs included tambourine and two vocal tracks by Lennon, pedal steel guitar by ‘Sneaky’ Pete Kleinow, organ and piano by Ascher. Spinozza also re-recorded his earlier guitar part, and added a separate guitar solo.
Lennon’s original vocals were retained for the final release, apart from during the bridge and the words “your name” before the guitar solo.
‘Aisumasen (I’m Sorry)’ was mixed on the following day, 6 August.
Take 2 of the song was included in the expanded 2024 reissue of Mind Games.
This is one of the songs on this collection that should have lost the reverb entirely – or, at the very least, turned it way down. It is a strong and beautiful melody that should be heard, but John is hiding behind that effect – again. The entire ensemble of songs here suffer the same fate unfortunately. And, yes, most of us could do without the Yoko references because it eliminates the casual listener from really sharing in the result. As soon as he sings ‘Aisumasen Yoko-san’ the song is yanked away – also a fate of too many really great Lennon tunes. This song almost sounds like it’s about to come to a complete halt by the burden of the tempo and the ambiguous instrumental arrangements which don’t really wake up until the very end of the song. But this is a really good tune and John’s vocals are quite good even if buried under the mush. It’s too bad. I’d love to get my hands on the raw tapes and remix this.
Gotta disagree, Tweeze. The reverb is a little heavy, yeah, but it’s still very effective in evoking the dreamy world that all of MIND GAMES is looking for. Remix it with a little less reverb if you must, but it’s the verb that sets up Spinozza’s solo so that it can RIP through with such clarity and precision. And invoking Yoko brings the listener right into Lennon’s world — it doesn’t push us away, it pulls us right into his most intimate world. This song would’ve been right at home on the White Album, and in fact Spinozza once told me that he was going for a bit of Octopus’s Garden in tone for the solo — surely one of the best guest solos on a Beatle or Post Beatle record. This song is an under-rated gem, a real masterpiece of melody, mood and brilliant performances all ’round, if a little to ‘verby.
I’m very much with you here Bradley.This is one of my all-time favourite John Lennon songs and (in a funny kind of way) I’m almost glad it goes un-noticed by so many as it feels like my little secret.
As for your issues with the track Tweeze, how can referencing Yoko possibly garner such a strong reaction that it “yanks away” the song itself? Does that ethos run common for “Hey Jude”? My mother isn’t called Mary, but “Let It Be” doesn’t suffer for me. What about “Julia” on the White Album? Maybe it’s just an irrational (but not unique) emotion directed at the love of John’s life – Yoko?
For me, being allowed into the acutely personal life of (arguably) the most important/influential men in modern times is the icing on an already delicious cake.
I think he used too much reverb and should have left Yoko out also
he used music as personal therapy instead of reaching out to us speaking to us and thinking of us it’s too self centered and looking back its a sad reflection of his pathetic mommy complex and inner weakness
She was rather repulsive as a person controlling and a selfish egomaniac but poor Johnny didn’t have the proper Cajunas to meet the needs of a real woman instead he was the needy one ….sad
He was a genius nonetheless but his earlier stuff was expressive without being too weepy and self centered
Hey Eric: I think the same: “I’m almost glad it goes un-noticed by so many as it feels like my little secret.” 🙂
This is one of the highlights of the Mind Games album. As Joe says this is a real signpost to his separation from Yoko and the beginning of the Lost Weekend. A real lead in to what was to come on Walls and Bridges.
Dreamy, bluesy number with a heartfelt Lennon vocal, quirky bass part and a killer guitar solo. The remixed version that happened in the 2000’s sounds much clearer than what was originally released on vinyl.
It’s a nice little song but I can’t wait for the guitar solo: what would it be without it?