Sir Peter Jackson's The Beatles: Get Back | Page 32 | Fab Forum | The Beatles Bible

january 13th, 1969 (ii)

roll 132a: the lunchroom tape

As the recording begins, Paul jokingly asks where George is. Yoko remarks that they can get George back into the group quite easily, but John contradicts her, and explains frankly that he doubts this because at the meeting the previous day they’d allowed George’s “wound” to go even deeper – with their egos keeping them from settling things between them.

PAUL: [bleak; joking] So where’s George?

RINGO: It smells like George is here.

YOKO: [to John] Well, you can get back George so easily, you know that. You know, Paul and—

JOHN: But it’s not that easy, because it’s a festering wound—

PAUL: Yeah.

LINDA: Yeah.

JOHN: —that we’ve allowed to – and yesterday, we allowed it go even deeper. But we didn’t give him any bandages. And it’s only because George, uh, when he comes up, when he is that part of him… We have egos. We can’t help but have—

RINGO: Well, it can be a burden.

JOHN: I have, you know—

YOKO: Well, I have one too, you know.

PAUL: You don’t say.

RINGO: [inaudible]

…

JOHN: [inaudible] I wouldn’t say it’s my ego. It was yesterday, really – or, or even the day before when we went to George’s—

PAUL: I sure as hell know I wouldn’t like you to.

JOHN: What?

PAUL: Dig in your heels.

YOKO: Your ego’s great, by the way.

PAUL: ’Cause if I’m to – if I’m to look at either of you, you know, I really don’t like to be smothered. You know—

YOKO: No, no no—

PAUL: You know, if I could–if you were in a shop on a shelf, I might buy you— [inaudible]

John then wonders aloud whether he wants George back in the group at all. He mentions, not for the last time, the inertia that had settled upon the group during the recording of “The Beatles” the previous year, that George is beginning to be unhappy with his role in the group, and agrees with an earlier statement from Paul that George is somewhat apart from the others. The problem with George has obviously riled John, and he apologizes, in a roundabout way, for Paul having to bear the consequences of their conflict.

JOHN: I’m just trying to ask him this time – do I want him back, Paul? I’m just asking, do I want it back? Whatever it is.

YOKO: Right, do you want to have him back. If you want to have George back, you have to—

JOHN: Then if it is, you know, then I’d have to [inaudible] a new one for you, I would have to step in and chance it for you. To carry on, for whatever reasons there is. And so, really—

PAUL: That’s the thing. That’s what I’m trying to do.

JOHN: [inaudible] —has had to go around with more for the past year, than he has – all the other years, because I think he’s been on such a – a good ride before—

PAUL: Could it just be, like—

JOHN: —that like, that he thought he could afford to be more insensitive. [inaudible] —or whatever it was, you know. And this year, he’s suddenly realized it, you know. And—

PAUL: Really? I guess it is. I’m sure it is. I know it is.

…

JOHN: It’s just that, you know. It’s only this year that you’ve suddenly realized, like, who I am, or who he is, or anything like that. But the thing is – you realize that, like, you were saying, like, George was some other part. But up ‘til then, you’d had a – your – your thing that carried you forward.

YOKO: [inaudible]

JOHN: I know, I’d adjusted before you. Alright, that will make me hipper than you, but I know that I’d adjusted to you before that – for selfish reasons, and for good reasons – uh, not knowing what I was to do, and for all these reasons, I’d adjusted to all these, and allowed you to – you know, if you wanted to let me, let me be that guy, very, very… whatever it is. But this year, you’ve seen – suddenly, you’ve seen what you’ve been doing, and what everybody’s been doing, and not only felt guilty about it, the way we all feel guilty about our relationship to each other, is we could do more.

YOKO: [inaudible]

JOHN: I know, the thing is that I’m – I can’t – I’m not putting any blame on you for only suddenly realizing it, see! Because , it might have been our game, you know, it might have been… masochistic, but the – the goal was still the same. Self-preservation, you know. And I knew what I liked about it. I know where – even though I didn’t know where I was at – the table’s there, and… there Ring can do what he wants, and George too, you know…

PAUL: I know. I know—

YOKO: [inaudible]

JOHN: And I have one.

PAUL: But this thing has been—

JOHN: But I think you – I feel it’s—

PAUL: You have—

JOHN: I feel it’s you.

PAUL: Whatever it is – you have. Yeah, I know. Well – well I’ve had [inaudible] as well—

JOHN: Because you – ’cause you seem to have got it all, you see.

PAUL: Mm.

JOHN: I know that, because of the way I am, like when we were in Mendips, like I said – “Do you like me?” Or whatever it is. I’ve always – uh, played that one. So.

PAUL: Yeah.

YOKO: Go back to George. What are we going to do about George?

[John] then explains that he’s torn – part of him wants to help George resolve his problems, and the other half feels that George’s self-imposed exile is well deserved.

JOHN: But this year, suddenly, it’s all happened to you. And you sort of go – you’re tak– you’re taking the blame, suddenly, as if, uh… Oh, he’ll say, “Oh yeah, you know I’m a mean guy,” as if I’ve never known it! And then you thought, “Fucking hell. I know what he’s like. I know he used to kick people. I know how he connived with Len, Ivan. I know him.” You know? “Fuck him.” And then, “Oh, but, but right, I’ve done such things…” You know, all that. So you’ve taken the five years that he puts you [inaudible], you’ve taken the five years of trouble, this year. You know. So half of me says, “Alright. I’d do anything to, to save you, to help you.” And the other half of me goes, well, serves him fucking right. I’ve chewed through fucking shit because of him for five years, and he’s only just realized what he was doing to her! So – and that’s something that we’ve – we’ve both known, you know. [laughs; bleak] And it is incredible. [pause]

PAUL: Yeah.

Paul mentions that he assumes that George will return to the group (much as Ringo had the previous year when he’d quit), but John responds and asks him what they’re going to do if that isn’t the case. Paul doesn’t have an answer.

John then repeats a remark George had made at the previous day’s meeting, where (obviously referring to Yoko) he had expressed his opinion that John no longer sees just the four of them as The Beatles. John agrees with George’s assessment, though, and states that he alone could front a version of “The Beatles,” and gives Paul this same credit.

YOKO: But it’s about George. It’s all about George, isn’t it?

PAUL: [restrained] Well, I don’t know, you know.

JOHN: But you see, George – George seems to be—

PAUL: The only thing I can say to that is – the only thing I can say, is just to sort of, [very quiet] you know— [inaudible] —people on – uh. [pause] See, I’m just assuming he’s coming back, you know. I tell you, I’m just assuming he’s coming back.

RINGO: If he wants—

JOHN: What if he isn’t?

PAUL: If he isn’t, then… if he isn’t, then it’s a new problem, in that case.

RINGO: He would like the four of us to sit down.

JOHN: It’s like we’ve said—

PAUL: Yeah.

RINGO: He wants the four of us to actually—

JOHN: See, if we want it – if we do want it, I still won’t tour, man, but I do want to—

PAUL: But you seem to – you seem to think—

JOHN: But if we do end up deciding we want it, as a policy, I can go along with that. Because the policy has kept us together.

RINGO: But the thing is that if we want him—

JOHN: If we want him, because we want him – but the thing is, like George said, it’s that The Beatles, to me, isn’t just limited to the four of us. I think that I, alone, could be a Beatle. [to Paul] I think you could. [to Ringo] I’m not sure whether you could, because you’re doing… Well, like, but I’m just telling you what I think! I don’t think The Beatles revolve around the four people! It might be like a job—

PAUL: But you know what, John, I’ll tell you one thing—

JOHN: [to Ringo] It’s like you joining the band instead of Pete. It’s like – to me, it is like that.

In response, Paul points out there there’s always been a pecking order within the group – that John’s always been the leader, with Paul secondary, and George third. John begins to interject, but Paul stops him, and says that George is correct – and that he and John have connived against him, however innocent their intentions, to keep the status quo. John agrees, and says George has been aware of his conniving since he was fourteen, when they attended Dovedale School together. He feels regret at treating George the way he does, but explains that such behavior is a facet of his personality that he’s tried to keep under control – sometimes going too far in the other direction in accommodating George.

PAUL: Tell you what—

RINGO: [inaudible] Let me tell you what I think. [pause; inaudible] —thing is this. [to John and Paul] You have always been at the front of the chute. Now, there have been some secondary rungs, but George has been third rung, and I’ve been the cabbage.

PAUL: [immediately] Never.

JOHN: [dismissive] No, we haven’t—

PAUL: No, just, no – listen here. You’re the rabbit, he’s right.

JOHN: But not always, though—

PAUL: [anxious] No, listen here – listen – always! Up! Up! [pause] I do think – no, I do think that as grim as it all is, that he’s right. And I do think that like our sole approach is exactly what he’s been saying. And that our brains sort of… con him. It’s all nothing. I do think that is a – I mean— [sputters] As a first way out, I can’t really even say that, but I do think, you know, that when you get right down to it—

JOHN: Yes.

PAUL: ’Cause the moments of clarity, that I’ve just been – are just so innocent, and so simple, that all my connive, and all my – urge, or— [inaudible]

JOHN: But don’t give me like – [inaudible] been aware of my conniving since fourteen. Real aware of it.

PAUL: Sure.

JOHN: And before that. You realize that I’ve known I’ve been conniving from – from Dovedale, you know that. I’ve been aware of that. Just because – I don’t know whether it’s him. It’s not him. It’s just me. That I’ve realized where it’s nowhere – but the thing is, I only know where it is when I’m in the middle of all of it—

PAUL: Yeah.

JOHN: —that I am sort of at it again. And that’s why I’ve had to fight for the last three years. And I’ve done it – the other way. Just – rather than allow myself to connive, I thought, “Stop it now. Stop it.”

…

JOHN: [whispering] I can’t stand them! The set, and all – all of it. [pause]

PAUL: It’s the same. It’s the same for all of us.

…

PAUL: But you are like that—

JOHN: And I realize that! You might not have realized it, but I have rules, you know. As I’ve taken off – ’cause I have, you know. [pause; somber] And it’s very hard. I kind of… glance it onto me, so it doesn’t harm anybody, you know, which is a – which is a preoccupation, really.

…

YOKO: I respect that I uh, I’m the spectator—

…

PAUL: [trying] If all of you were for sale on a shop, I’d want you as, you know, that, but I really don’t want you as that!

JOHN: Yes.

PAUL: But I want you as that! I don’t want him as that. You see, I want you to want you all. You’re [inaudible]. Now, okay, when I say those things, you know, I can hear myself sort of – but I don’t know what it is you want me to do! In period and in fact, I want you all for whatever you are, because I’m placing it – out of all the best, out of all we’ve bloody done, and what’s best is that what you are, is alright. Because if it isn’t, then it’s stupid of me to keep doing this. You know? Because it’s what you are, and I’ll [inaudible] anywhere. So I’m placing all the money, all the fame, and everything, on what you are. So if this is what you two are, then get on with it.

…

LINDA: [inaudible] —and make a great album, for all you know.

JOHN: But it’s not that easy…

LINDA: Of course it isn’t! [inaudible]

…

They then continue to discuss the dynamics within the group. Paul mentions how they tend to side with one another, and John repeats a statement George has made that he was no longer satisfied to be in The Beatles, because of the compromises necessary to be a member of the group. John mentions how things were still exciting back when they’d made “Revolver ” because they were still surprising themselves with their own music. Now, he feels they’re all working to a formula, and the only way left to challenge themselves is to go solo.

LINDA: You were saying that—

JOHN: [pained] It’s like George said. It just doesn’t give me the same sort of satisfaction anymore. Because of the compromise we’d have to make, to be together. [long pause] You know, it’s that the end result of the records now aren’t… enough. Because now, we – we know it so clearly, how we arrived at it, and for what it was and all. Before, it was always a surprise when we – you know. We weren’t so aware of how we reacted to it. When the – something came out, like Revolver  or Pepper or whatever, there was still that element of surprise that we didn’t know where it came from. But now we know exactly where it came from, and how we arrived at that particular noise, and how it could have been… much better. Or it needn’t have been at all. The only way to do it – satisfactory, for y– yourself – is to do it on your own. And then that’s fucking hard.

Linda responds that, whatever the problems with the process, their music is worth it, and that the problems between the band members need to be worked on just like the problems in any relationship.

LINDA: But you were saying yesterday, you know. And you know something, you – you’ve always been sort of thinking that it can’t be any better than it was; you’re not just a studio musician. You always say it. I mean, [inaudible] – I’m saying, hey, you make good music together. And you like it or not, you know.

JOHN: [furtive] I like it.

LINDA: And making good music is also—

JOHN: But it’s just—

LINDA: It’s really hard working at a relationship.

JOHN: I – I know.

LINDA: Of course! That’s what you said yesterday. It happens all the time, you know. And you also said you wanted [inaudible] The Beatles—

YOKO: I don’t want— [inaudible]

John’s not so sure, and mentions that all of them were dissatisfied with the previous year’s double album, “The Beatles,” – not because of the strained relationships during the making of the album, or the quality of the individual numbers (indeed, he thinks the songs are better than those on “Sgt. Pepper ”), but because it was less than satisfactory as a whole.

JOHN: It’s like all of us are dissatisfied with The Beatles LP. Now, it’s not because the way we got on doing it, because the end result was – was as good as it could’ve been. And – I don’t know what the reason could be. [pause] Mal, could you get a little glass of wine?

MAL: Yeah. Red, or—?

JOHN: If I get down to my contributions, then I’m satisfied, you know. But the whole thing is less satisfactory.

PAUL: [to Yoko] Well, I think it—

RINGO: But I enjoy it more.

JOHN: But individually. Name any of them! There is no [inaudible]. Even George’s numbers are more satisfactory than any numbers we’ve done before. But as a whole thing, it’s just not satisfactory to me.

RINGO: Well, I mean, I dig it far more than Sgt. Pepper  or anything—

LINDA: You know, it really—

JOHN: And I dig it too. I dig it, individually, far more than Sgt. Pepper . But as a whole – as a Beatles thing, I think it didn’t – it couldn’t work as a Beatles thing. I think it’s one of the best Beatles work we could have, you know, but as a – as an entity, as a whole—

PAUL: [to Yoko] That’s right.

JOHN: —coming out of all of us here – no.

…

Paul, sounding dispirited, remarks that he’s still working to satisfy himself within the confines of The Beatles. He then patronizes John, remarking how John’s his intellectual superior in some ways and, in turn, complimenting Ringo for his idea of recording a solo album of standards (known at this point as “Stardust,” and ultimately released the following year as “Sentimental Journey”). He then makes the touching statement that, when they’re all old, they’ll sing together once again.

PAUL: [restrained] Well, you know. I just think that I… have a lot to learn. And it’s only the simple things I have to learn. Because I’ve learned all the complicated things. And I can hold my own. You know, any [inaudible] types of arguments, with anyone.

YOKO: I know. I know you can.

PAUL: And I can outdo you anytime, I think.

YOKO: Right, right.

PAUL: Because – of the total buzz I’ve been on, that – that I’ve missed the point where I’m on top of a wall, where I’ve got to the top of the [inaudible] and thought, “You’ve won the race!” And I just thought, “But I haven’t.” Because I haven’t satisfied me. I’ve satisfied everyone else. You know. I’ve won the case for everyone else, and I can sort of go up and say, “Ah! But surely, Mr. S.—” “[inaudible]” “Phew. He’s right.” But I haven’t satisfied me. And that’s probably what I meant to say, actually.

JOHN: Yeah.

PAUL: [careful] What I meant to say was… um, a lot of things are just very simple, you know, that I don’t say, because – right, okay, because of certain things, where I have to stop back there, to get this point over. So like, intellectually, I’m – [inaudible] pleased. But I know that I’ve missed a few points, getting on with you intellectually. I’ve missed a few little – things. And that’s why I say, you know, that uh… [to Ringo] Just you talking about the Stardust album – you know. I mean, it isn’t – it isn’t as daft as you were sort of frightened it might sound. It isn’t. It – you know. Or maybe, you know, talking about – I want to see how you really want it to be. I mean, you don’t let me— [inaudible]

RINGO: Yeah.

PAUL: [inaudible] But I really didn’t sort of want to – try to be on your case, by sort of – say, handing you—

RINGO: [inaudible] —just really didn’t like it. And that’s what I’ve said— [inaudible] when I’m singing. “But you don’t sing.”

PAUL: You know, you try and—

RINGO: [inaudible; talking over one another] —and wondering… John might— [inaudible]

JOHN: [inaudible; talking over one another] —all the snobbery— [inaudible] George—

PAUL: [talking over one another; to Ringo] But the great thing is – the great thing is that you singing like how you really sing – will be it. It will be!

RINGO: Yes, but the only way is to do it on your own.

PAUL: Until then – yeah, sure. Until then – until you reach how you really sing, you’ll sing your half-soul.

RINGO: Yeah.

PAUL: And it’s probably when we’re all very old, that we’ll all sing together.

RINGO: Yeah.

PAUL: And we’ll all really sing, and we’ll all show each other how good we are, and in fact we’ll die, then, I don’t know. [Linda laughs; diffident] Probably, you know, probably something sappy or soft like that… I don’t know, but really, I mean, i– it’s really down to all those sort of simple, silly things to me.

YOKO: But those are the important things, you know.

PAUL: It’s got to be simple. It’s got to be simple. It can’t be A plus B equals X plus Y plus Z, because that’s them, you know. And it couldn’t be—

JOHN: [quiet] Maybe that’s what’s evading me.

PAUL: Yes. [sincere] But it’s okay, that, you know.

John’s not sure what the right path is, but Paul tells him he needs to follow the path that seems right to him. John’s still insecure about stepping out of the confines of The Beatles, but Paul once again encourages him to follow his muse. John points out that they’re all confident of their ability to make music on their own.

JOHN: [hesitating] I just, uh… because I’m not really sure what or how I feel about it.

PAUL: No, but you’re—

JOHN: Because any time—

PAUL: You’re unsure because you’re not sure whether to go left or right on an issue. You’ve noticed the two ways open to us. You know the way we all want to go. And you know the way you want to go. Which is positive! ‘Cause you want to go – now, okay. So your positive thing might actually be to kick that telephone box in. It might occasionally be to do that. So you know that’s the way you’ve gotta go.

YOKO: Everybody would want to see that, actually.

PAUL: But you don’t want to actually look like you’re kicking the telephone box in. So you have to sort of say to everyone, “Look at that over there, everyone!” And while they’re not looking, you’ll kick the telephone box in, and sort of— [whistles innocently]

JOHN: I don’t think that’s a fair representation. [laughs]

PAUL: [conceding] Oh, well, it involves me, that’s me. I do that, too. And I think we all do that. But I think the answer is, that – while you’ve got us all looking at nothing over there, and you’ve thrown us for a minute, we would actually all have dug to see you kick that telephone box in. Because we wanna see you do it.

YOKO: But we’d have to say it too, though. That’s another thing.

PAUL: We would actually want to watch the Steve McQueen film, where he kicks the telephone box in. We all want to see that. You know. And I really think that’s—

YOKO: Yes, but sometimes it’s very—

JOHN: But it must be our own faults, that we’ve built it up that I can’t kick the telephone box – apart from it being my fault—

PAUL: You can. You could.

JOHN: But – the feeling that, that – that I – like Ringo said about his album, that what – we’re – you know. I won’t do it, ‘cause I’m gonna let us down, or – look a fool.

PAUL: Yeah.

JOHN: You know, and we’ve each done that to each— That bit.

PAUL: We all know we can do that, you know. I mean, I’m really trying to sort of learn, really— [inaudible] —meaning.

JOHN: Well, it’s like – we’ve all found – we can do it on our own.

As Paul moves on to a discussion of the current rehearsals, he says that the best he can hope for is approval from two of the three other Beatles. He feels a little guilty about this – as if he could have been better “selling” his songs to the others, and remarks he enjoys getting on the piano, because he’s able to actually perform a song as opposed to rehearsing it, which “sells” it much better.

PAUL: But on our own, I’m just gonna have to sort of just say it to you all. Through the song. Now I know if I – when I’m saying to you all, “Listen, this is how this song goes,” you know, then I know if I half-tell you how it goes, that there’ll be two of you who’ll like it, and then there’s only [inaudible]. You know.

JOHN: Yeah.

PAUL: A certain amount of you will like it, and some of you won’t. Because , and I know – and you know, this is where it gets heavy. Because you’ve got to blame yourself, for that. Because I know I half-sang it.

JOHN: Yes.

PAUL: And I know that if – say I’m pissed, at the end of an evening, and I just, and I get on a piano because I really just want to get on a piano. And I’m singing because I don’t particularly want to show off, too. I want to really sing this song, now, and say what I wanna say, and so on and so on and so on. I’ll do it, and everyone in that room will dig it, because it’s me really doing it. And I know that we all have this. [inaudible] And everyone will be really crazy about it. Now if I were really doing it, everyone will listen, and everyone will dig it, and no one will go against it. It’s when I half-mean it, or it’s when I nearly mean it, but there’s – there’s always that one person that can spot that – that—

JOHN: Yeah.

PAUL: Spot them doing a mistake. You know, there’s always someone who can spot that little bit where Charlie Chester didn’t quite mean it, or Charlie Drake, when he didn’t quite mean the joke. You know, it’s all in that.

YOKO: But then sometimes it doesn’t matter to you, so.

PAUL: It’s like if we could really… See, that’s why I think this is where we’ve got a problem now, you know.

[Paul] then offers up another pep talk, and says that if they all just allow each other to play to the best of their abilities and stop trying to micro-manage the rehearsals, things will work out a lot better. John says that Paul can’t make George play competently, because he’s afraid he won’t follow directions, and that Paul treats him the same way. Paul agrees, and John continues with the same subject, only from his own vantage point for his own songs. He says that during the recording of “The Beatles” he felt it wasn’t any use telling Paul how to play, that he (John) was drunk much of the time, and really only concerned about his own singing performance. On top of this, he didn’t want to be seen as providing a finished arrangement for the others – though he claims that “Dear Prudence ” was arranged, as simple as it is.

PAUL: What I’d like to do, is for the four of us – and you know, we’ve all have done that thing, to different degrees – I think, is if you go one way, you go one way, George goes one way, and me another. But I know it will apply to all us, if one day, we can all be singing like we’re singing, [to Ringo] you can be drumming like you’re drumming, George can be really playing – I mean, like he plays, not as if I’m trying to make him play like me. But now it’s like I keep trying to make him play like – how I’ve played – guitar—

JOHN: But you don’t, you see. The point – the point that we both – or, mainly me—

PAUL: Back up, back up.

JOHN: Yeah, okay. Is that – you try and make George play – competently, because you’re afraid that how he’ll play won’t be like you want him to play. And that’s what we did. And that’s what you did to me. [pause]

PAUL: Yeah.

JOHN: And – I – that’s the difference with you saying that the competen— —so annoyed by the conniving on The Beatles album, was that—

PAUL: Yeah.

JOHN: I got to a bit where I thought – it’s no good, me telling you how to do it. You know? All I tried to do on that album was just sing it to you like I was drunk, you know.

PAUL: Yeah.

JOHN: Just did me best to say, “Look, this, this stands up on its own.”

PAUL: Yeah.

JOHN: And I’m not doing this quite well as I – like even with ‘Don’t Let Me Down’, the first time I sang it. Because I hadn’t allowed meself to say it, as a whole song.

PAUL: Yeah.

JOHN: I couldn’t work – it was only after we’d done it that I’d realized – it was done. You know, and on The Beatles album, I just sort of said, “[inaudible] —here. This is me singing it drunk, but I’m pretending as if I’m not. What would you do with it?”

PAUL: [laughs] Drunk.

JOHN: You know? “George, you play whatever you like.”

PAUL: Yeah.

JOHN: You know, and that’s what it was. It wasn’t – it wasn’t the arrogance of, “Listen. This is it, baby.” It isn’t that. I can’t tell you what to do because you won’t play, here, like how I think you should play—

PAUL: Yeah, right.

JOHN: And—

PAUL: You see, that’s – that’s the thing.

JOHN: I’m not going to tell you what to play—

PAUL: That seems to be the trouble, is that—

YOKO: It is. [pause]

PAUL: Okay. And that’s great, you know. And then – just being able to say that, on the occasion. I just mean to say, “Look, I’m not going to say anything about myself, because – we – I’m going to really try, now—”

JOHN: But we’re trying—

PAUL: “—to sing it to you—”

JOHN: [exasperated] Yeah, I know, because you wouldn’t say—

PAUL: Listen to me— [inaudible]

JOHN: [inaudible] —we arranged it, you know?

PAUL: I know, I know.

JOHN: You can’t see— Listen, uh, you— [inaudible]

PAUL: I say that, of course, when— —when you say that to me, because I haven’t got it up off you.

JOHN: Yeah, but the point is—

PAUL: And you’ve sort of – I think—

JOHN: Well, I’m saying that ‘Dear Prudence ’ is arranged. Can’t you hear bom, bom, bom, bom, bom…?

PAUL: Yeah.

JOHN: That – that is the arrangement, you know.

PAUL: Yeah.

John makes it clear that he doesn’t like directing his numbers the way Paul does, and that he can’t work in that fashion, and never did – though this has sometimes resulted in a recording that he’s not entirely satisfied with (both Paul and John remark that “She Said, She Said” is an example of this). On the other hand, John doesn’t want anyone else to arrange his numbers for him either; but would welcome suggestions that he could either accept or reject as he chooses.

JOHN: But I’m too frightened to say “this is it,” that I just sit there and say, “Look, if you don’t – come along, and play your bit, I won’t do the song,” you know? I can’t do any better than that. Don’t ask me for what… movie you’re gonna play on it.

PAUL: Yeah.

JOHN: Because … apart from not knowing, I can’t tell you better than you have, what grooves you’d play on it. You know, I just can’t work! I can’t do it like that. Or I could, you know! [quiet] But when you think of the other half of this, just think – how much more have I done towards helping you write? I’ve never told you what to sing, or what to play.

PAUL: Yeah.

JOHN: You know, I’ve always done the numbers like that. Now, the only regret, just for the past numbers, is that when – because I’ve been so frightened, I’ve allowed you to take it somewhere where I didn’t want—

PAUL: Yeah.

JOHN: And then – my only chance was to let George or Ring take over, or interest George in it, because I knew he’d—

PAUL: Like ‘She Said, She Said’?

YOKO: Yeah, yeah.

JOHN: ‘She Said, She Said’. Then he’d – he’d– ’cause he’d take it as is. You know? [inaudible; drowned out by voice marking] So on that last album— [inaudible] —arrangements on it— [inaudible] —it’s probably George, you know. If there’s anything wrong with it. Because I don’t want your arrangement on it. I only want your – if you give me your suggestions, where you let me reject them, or in the case there’s one I like – it’s when we’re writing songs.

PAUL: Mm.

JOHN: The same goes for the arrangement. I don’t want it – to… [sighs] I don’t know. [pause]

PAUL: [quiet] No, I know. I know what you mean, yeah.

YOKO: I know exactly what you mean.

JOHN: I want it to be like I’m just doing it, but— —I know— “—dun-dun-duh? Okay, that’s nearly as fast. [inaudible] Or we can go for, duh-duh-dun-dun-duh-duh-duh.”

PAUL: Yeah.

[John] says he’d rather just sing his songs, and let someone else worry about the production (using “Being For The Benefit of Mr. Kite” as an example). Paul says he feels much the same way about his own work, but John points out that at one time neither he or George felt comfortable even offering suggestions to Paul for his tunes, because they were sure they’d be rejected.

JOHN: And that’s all I did on the last album was say, “Okay, Paul. You’re out to decide where my songs are concerned, arrangement-wise.” [exasperated] I don’t know the songs, you know. I’d sooner just sing them, than have them turn into – into ‘Mr. Kite’, or anything else, where – I’ve accepted the problem from you that it needs arrangement. And then, because I’m an ape – I don’t know. I don’t see any further than me, the guitar, and the drums, and – and George Martin doing the— I don’t hear any of the… flutes playing, you know? I suppose I could hear ‘em, if I sat down and worked very hard. I could turn out a mathematical drawing if you’d like, but I could never do it off me own backside, I always have to just – [brushing sound from strumming motion] do that, you know?

PAUL: Yeah.

JOHN: I mean—

PAUL: [quiet] Yeah. Yeah. [pause] I’m onto the same thing, you know. That’s – that’s – we’re all at that. It is only, like, if you can just remember that we’re – you know. That the four of us are trying to do that. Because I mean, all of those things you say, you know, in some way, apply to me. Not all ways—

JOHN: Yes, yes, because everything applies a little bit to you, too.

PAUL: [inaudible] —it is just you saying it. They’re all – you know, in some way, to some degree, will apply to me.

JOHN: ‘Cause once there was a period where none of us could actually – uh, say anything, about your criticisms.

PAUL: Yeah. Yeah.

JOHN: [bleak] ‘Cause you would reject it all.

PAUL: [quiet] Yeah, sure.

JOHN: And so George and I would just go – you know, “I’ll give you a line here,” “Okay,” you know, “We’ll do four in a bar, and I’ll do…” And a lot of the times you were right.

PAUL: Yeah.

JOHN: But a lot of the times you were – the same as they always are. But I can’t see the answer to that.

Paul, in his own defense, points out that he’d given George plenty of latitude in the previous week’s rehearsals, but that George isn’t naturally the kind of guitarist who can just improvise a solo, preferring to work it out at home first. Paul then seems to wonder aloud what method could be used with George to avoid the ego-issues raised by their telling him exactly what to play. As they discuss this, the available tape runs out.

PAUL: No, but – no, that’s good you see. The thing is, like, within each other, within – within ourselves, we reach something that’s nearly perfect. And everyone else who’s listening will think, “That’s it. They’ve got it.” You know – you know what I mean. So okay, we know we nearly made it, but – we’ve really made it, for everyone else. ‘Cause it’s okay, we’re into the fine, finest, finest technicalities – I mean, that’s where it’s at, you know. If one day, we can even keep all – if all the people who are listening to this, nearly nearly made it, they’ll think we’ve made it, you know. They’ll think that’s it. So okay, if we can nearly, if we can creep up on it – and that’s – see, that’s what I’m trying to do. Like last week, yesterday [inaudible] doing alright for me, I was really – trying to just say to George, “Take it there,” you know, whereas I wouldn’t have gone [inaudible] and said, “Take it there – with diddle-a-diddle-a-da.” But I was trying last week, to say, “Now, take it over there, and it needs to be like – but, oh, what, like, whatever you—”

JOHN: You see, the point is now – George – is we both did that to George, this time.

PAUL: Mm.

JOHN: And – because of the build up to it, that – now he can’t even take that.

PAUL: Treating him a bit like a mongrel, yeah.

JOHN: He can’t even – you know. It’s like if I say, “Alright, take it,” he’ll say, “Well, look, I can’t take it. I’ll forget it.”

PAUL: Yeah…

JOHN: I have to, uh—

PAUL: ‘Cause he knows what we’re all about.

JOHN: Yeah.

PAUL: So he knows that when we say, “Take it,” we expect doo-doo-duh-duh-doo. If I said that, then you’d expect—

JOHN: But it’s just that bit. The bit where we’ve – ‘I’ve Got A Feeling’.

PAUL: Yeah.

JOHN: We – there’s no way we could have translated it to him, to say… you know. And then when it came over—

PAUL: Well, if he was desperate, he would’ve just said, “I’ll do it at home.”

JOHN: Yeah. Well, I mean— [inaudible] —nothing to do now! If he’s gonna go home, then so am I, you know?

PAUL: Yeah.

JOHN: I’m gonna go home to record in the studio, rather than go through – through this with anybody in the facility recording me.

PAUL: Yeah, right. But it’s only for a time. [inaudible] —and I’ve never said that to George. I’ve never said to George, “Look, George, I think, now I want this guitar bit, and I want it exactly like how I want it.” And he could have said to me, then, “Well, you can’t have it.”But you see, that’s it. George would never say that to me, and I’d never say that to him, and we go on, just – as separate. But really, I mean, it is gonna be much better if we can actually just [inaudible] and say, “Look, John, ‘I’ve Got A Feeling’, I want you to do this bit exactly like I play it.” And you’ll say, “Forget it, I’m not you.”

JOHN: Yeah.

PAUL: “And I can’t do it exactly like you do it—”

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